Have you ever looked fear in the face and said, "I just don't care"?

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Closed your eyes and trusted, just trusted?
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said, "I just don't care"?
It's only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg
The sun before the burn
The thunder before the lightning
The breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?
Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
You're whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?
It's only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breath before the kiss
And the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?




Have you ever looked fear in the face and said, "I just don't care"?


I so seriously wish I was that person that looked fear in the face. I can't do it. I think that is the scary part. I want to make that jump. That leap of faith. But I am being tied down by something or someone. Mary Beth you helped me who realize who that someone was. It was me. I hold myself back, because I am afraid of what I will feel for anything or anyone. I want to feel so much and recieve so much, but I keep focusing on giving so much. I wish I had the strength that this song does. I've never been touched so gentley that I cried. I want to FEEL that. Is that bad, that I want to feel all of this. I don't want to do something I shouldn't. But this is all new to me. I'm finding myself amist the ashes and fire. And I like the tingling feeling I get from being burned and hurt. But to be loved, that is a whole new feelings. A different circumstance. A new way. A road that I take, but the path is scary, because their are bumps and turns along the way.

I've never closed my eyes and just trusted. I wish that was possible with me. I wish I look someone in the eye and say, " I trust you, take care of me." I can't. All the things that have happened. All the misunderstandings and miscommunications along the line are holding me back. I wish I could WAKE UP one morning and feel and know love. Scary, I know. But for me it's terrifying. I know that God loves me and maybe that is all that should matter.