So I haven't been on in awhile ; I'm sorry about that. So much has happened in such little time -- I have had some bad moments ; & good moments --;* But I think overall I'm better. I can be a bitch sometimes & hurt people |but| it's a guard I put up to defend myself ; sorry for that ! But I can't help it --> because I don't want to change myself. I added and deleted friends on facebook ;* I may regret that one day & I blocked people .

Sweat pants, hair tied, chillin with no make-up on. That's when you're the prettiest, I hope that you don't take it wrong.

He told me that I'm pretty all the time.

No matter what.

& That means alot.

I came; I saw; I conquered.

I made the decision.

I'm happy with it.

I prayed a long time about it.
But it worked out.

I can't help that I'm sensitive and I get hurt easily.
I can't be a cold hearted person.

I can't give in to that.

But I'm happy. I'm in love. & I'm at peace.

It always occurs to me
How lovely you look today
Just how you smile that way
Makes my heart melt
Seemed like just yesterday
When you stole my breath away
You walked into my life
You completed my soul
When you walked into my life
You completed my soul

Now I'm in peace yeah, yeah
I'm in peace
Whoa
I'm in peace when I'm with you
You set me free
You're all I need
Lift me off my feet
Beauty Queen

Where did you find that soul of yours
You must have traveled through heaven
And searched through the garden of love
I swear there's a light
When your eyes touch me
It's like the sun, like the sun is.. reaching down from the sky
When you touch me with your eyes
It's like the sun from the sky

Now I'm in peace yeah, yeah
I'm in peace
Whoa
I'm in peace when I'm with you
You set me free
You're all I need
Lift me off my feet
Beauty Queen

Your whispering
It's uplifting
Sink into my body while I'm drifting
When you kiss me
Really truly kiss me
Connected by our hearts
We are one

well, it's true that i have been hurt in my life. Quite a bit. But it's also true that i have loved, and been loved. and that carries a weight of it's own. a greater weight, in my opinion. it's like that pie chart we talked about earlier. in the end, i'll look back on my life and see that the greatest piece of it was love. the problems, the divorces, the sadness... those will be there too, but just smaller slivers, tiny pieces. "

Your pulling me down;

Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down

Oh I'll never know what makes this man
With all the love that his heart can stand
Dream of ways to throw it all away

Oh Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down

Oh twice as much aint twice as good
And can't sustain like a one half could
It's wanting more
That's gonna send me to my knees

Oh gravity, stay the hell away from me
And gravity has taken better men than me (Now how can that be?)

Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
Keep you all where the light is
Just keep us where the light is

"You complete me"

Young and full off running
tell me where is that taking me
just a great figure eight
or a tiny infinite

love is really nothing
but a dream that keeps waking me
for all of my trying
we still end up dying
how can it be?

don't say a word
just come over and lie here with me
cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see

I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
there I just said it
I'm scared you'll forget about me

so young and full off running
all the way to the edge of desire
steady my breathing
silently screaming
I have to have you now

wired and I'm tired
think I'll sleep in my clothes on the floor
baby this mattress will spin on it's axis
and find me on yours

don't say a word
just come over and lie here with me
cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see

I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
there I just said it
I'm scared you'll forget about me


don't say a word
just come over and lie here with me
cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see

I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
there I just said it
I'm scared you'll forget about me

6.15.10

I'm going to make the biggest decision of my life today.

I'm fucking scared.

Tonight was full of surprises :) Haddd a good talk with D.BOND :) I love this man. our anniversary was perfect ; hahah but we didn't see each other . That's for tomorrow ;) Lol I'm so tiredd . Well - I got a text that said I had a facebook msg from daniella. She apologized for everything. but I already forgave her. we had a nice convo about a lot of stuff . I will probably write more about this tomorrow . night.

Mark Salling as Puck on Glee singing "Sweet Caroline"

Perfect Voice :)

I'm addicted :)

I'm buying all the season's .
;)

My God, amazing how we got this far ;

I have to write this blog ;

Been wanting to for atleast three weeks now ;

I don't want a best friend ; i can't have one

They always screw up & then blame it on me.

But I think I will be , no I know I will be fine

with not having one ;

life as we know it :)

It's been awhile ; hasn't it . I know ! Sorry , life has been perfect :) Got a brand new phone ; the LG Rumor Touch . I adore it ;


Life ; Keeps taking my breath away . Still finding a new house ; but it's not as bad as it seems . School ; Making all A's and one B . Bleh . I love my school friends ; Melanie Brookman . Your amazing . Love ; Dominique and I are doing amazing . Thank God :) Family ; My brother made it back from Afganistan safely . But he is still the same brother I know. Dad ; another story .


SO I got the baby-sitting job ! I'm so excited :) It starts June 25th ; I love how when I told Rebecca she said ; Thank God . No one else said that & that's when you know you have a good , strong , christian in your life . The kids are adorable and very sweet :) & their dog is gorgeous :)



MICHIGAN on the 25th through the 29th :) I can't wait to see my sweet KATIE :) I am booking the flight right now :) This is going to be amazing . I may take a bus :) Who knows . So I found a bus ride for $140 :) I'm taking that :)