3.7 GPA :)

Overall GPA is a 3.7 WOW! I'm SO proud of myself. And that's all I got to say.

The time of my life :)

Friday was GREAT :) No school ! as always. But I went shopping with Christian & Charles. It was fun. They always seem to make me laugh :) Then I went to the gym to meet up with LIANA :) We had fun, but we're only their for a short amount of time. I miss her alot, We talked last night. I'll write more about that later. Work was next, from five to eight :/ Movie/Girls night with Rebecca Dawn was that night. She always makes me smile. We went to see Death at a funeral and then went to Chili's for dinner.

Saturday; ZOOOOO! Riverbanks zoo to be exact. & Dominique and I had a blast. We're going again soon . The tiger was asleep. Oh well. But I love it when we go out of town. It's just me and him and I like it that way. I like being selfish and wanting him all to myself when we go out of town. :)

Sunday; Church. Someone overslept; so they didn't come. Oh well. I had fun ! & then my mom and I went to Ruby Tuesday's. absolute favorite place to eat :)

But SO far; This weekend has been alot better than alot of other times. :)

Why do people in the South like Sweet Te

Why do people in the South like Sweet Tea so much ?

;& this made my day :)

"When it comes down to it I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I'm already better than them anyway."

Spirit Fingers :)

My TMA class and I now do SPIRIT FINGERS instead of clapping :) LMAO

I honestly love SCHOOL and the environment I am in :) WE all got up and read from our journals. And Barbie said that we are all SUPER STARS :) Lol I can't wait to move forward with these people.

WE had meditation in the Lab and I actually enjoyed it :) I'm waiting for Mister Tom to come get me. Then I have work soon; life is great. I'm emailing Charles Jenkins and Elizabeth Parsons right now. Matter of Fact I need to check her blog. :)

bye :)

My Prayer List :) Read & Pray

- That everything will workout the way that God wants it.

- Better relationship with my Mom :)

- That I keep the strong friendship I have with Liana & Becca :)

- For Becca to keep that positive outlook on life. & that both of her trips are very positive and fun. & that she will get a break.

- For Liana to keep up with the gym and that her and Jason keep a strong relationship.

- School, to keep my 98% average in all my classes, but I want to get that 100%.

- That Tyler makes it home SAFE.

- That Dominique still have that strong relationship :)

- That I get to go to the ZOO

- That I learn patience with people.

- Being thankful for tossing out the negative people in my life.

TWLOHA; Know the Facts & Help.

Quick Numbers

-121 million people worldwide suffer from depression. (World Health Organization)


- 18 million of these cases are happening in the United States. (The National Institute of Mental Health)

- Between 20% and 50% of children and teens struggling with depression have a family history of this struggle and the offspring of depressed parents are more than three times as likely to suffer from depression. (U.S. Surgeon General's Survey, 1999)

- Depression often co-occurs with anxiety disorders and substance abuse, with 30 percent of teens with depression also developing a substance abuse problem. (NIMH)

- 2/3 of those suffering from depression never seek treatment.

Untreated depression is the number one cause of suicide, and suicide is the third leading cause of death among teenagers. (NIMH)


About Depression
According to the World Health Organization, depression is one of the leading causes of disability, with approximately 121 million people suffering with depression worldwide. The National Institute of Mental Health states that approximately 18 million people suffer from depression in America alone. Depression does not discriminate across age, race, gender, or class. Among teenagers it is estimated that 20 percent will suffer from depression at some point by the time they reach adulthood. There are also as many as 8.3 percent of teens suffering from depression for at least a year at a time, compared to 5.3 percent of the general population.
About Addiction
The stigma associated with addiction is one of the greatest challenges to recovery. Each year only 10 percent of Americans who need alcohol and drug treatment get the help they need. Yet with treatment and support, people with addiction can lead productive lives.

The Addiction Project has benefited from contributions by the leading experts in the field of addiction. Throughout this website you will find original articles written by experts featured in the Addiction series and more.


About Self-Injury
While not always the case, often untreated depression and other struggles lead to unhealthy ways in which we try and deal with the hurt and pain we are feeling. We try and find anything that we can do to take away the hurt, painful feelings, or negative thoughts we are experiencing. Often the things that we turn to seem to help at first, appearing to provide some of the relief that we need so badly. But, even though they may seem like they help, often they are unhealthy themselves, eventually becoming even greater struggles like addictions such as drugs, alcohol, eating disorders, or self-injury.

Self-injury remained very much a mystery until 1996 when Princess Diana revealed that she had struggled with it. It has become much more visible in society within the last ten years. Self-injury is also termed self-mutilation, self-harm, or self-abuse. It can be defined as the deliberate, repetitive, impulsive, non-lethal harming of one’s self, including but not limited to;

1) cutting

2) burning

3) picking or interfering with wound healing

4) infecting oneself

5) punching/hitting self or objects

6) inserting objects in to skin

7 )bruising or breaking bones and

8) some forms of hair pulling

While these behaviors pose serious risks, they may be symptoms of a problem that can be treated.

Experts estimate that 4% of the population struggle with self-injury. It has the same occurrence between males and females, even though in popular culture it can appear to be more prevalent among girls.

• Emptiness

• Inability to understand or express feelings

• Loneliness

• Fear

• Past Abuse

• Depression

Self-injury, like many addictions, is often a coping mechanism to deal with some manner of internal pain, many who struggle with it also struggle with other issues such as eating disorders and alcohol and drug abuse. While self-injury may be someone’s way to cope with or relieve painful or hard-to-express feelings and is generally NOT a suicide attempt, relief is always temporary, and usually only perpetuates a destructive cycle that continues the struggle. This cycle often means that those who do not get help can become more depressed and shameful, adding to the pain and need for relief, thus perpetuating the cycle.

The Dangers of Self-Injury - While self-injury may not be about attempting suicide, the damage done while harming oneself ALWAYS carries the risks of inflicting serious, and even lethal, harm to oneself regardless of whether suicide is intended or not. Also the continued cycle of addiction and self-harm, as in substance abuse and other eating disorders can have a destructive effect on one’s health both physically and mentally, and struggles worsen as time continues without treatment.

(SAFE alternatives - www.selfinjury.com)

Self-injury, like alcohol and drug abuse and eating disorders, is addictive, and thus not something that is easy to simply ‘stop’. However, while all addictions are very difficult to overcome, help and treatment are out there and available, and recovery and freedom are possible.We believe this is true whether someone’s struggles may be self injury, depression, drugs and alcohol, body image issues, sexual addiction, or other areas of brokenness.

& this is Spain :)

Fact; This is Spain, Madrid :)
Fact; I want to swim in this water when I am 87.
Fact; I want to live here.
Fact; I want my childrent to visit this place when their old like me.
Fact; I want to honeymoon here :)

This WAS a fantastic movie :) Scarlett Johansson was PERFECT :)

Input & Output :)

Today in EDU class;

1. I learned that what you put in to ANYTHING is what you get out of EVERYTHING.

2. I spoke up and told them about my job & how I really don't like the environment their anymore.

3. This guy told me some valuable things to do to people that somewhat piss me off.

4. I realized that I had to leave early to write this blog; & study for TMA EXAM 1 tomorrow. Lord, help me.



Yesterday, Was an experience all together. I went to Dominique's church. I was beyond the point of being terrified. But I DID enjoy it. I liked the sermon, Dominique kept repeating everything the pastor was saying in my ear. He was very distracting during church. Bad boy?! I know :) But you got to love him. Then we went home and WE ATE alot of FOOD. my stomach was talking the whole time we were at church.

After stuffing our faces, I picked out a movie for us to watch, " The black Dahlia" I liked it, even though I NAPPED like the whole time. I'm sorry. I felt horrible. But then I had to realize that we were SPENDING quality time together ;) And it was amazing :) He sure is a funny guy

Then I went home and did homework; which I got alot more today; Hmm. SCHOOL is alot of work and you have to put so much time towards it. But hey, I can do it ! :)

I had a LONG talk with Becca last night & it did both of us some good :) We realized that we are the same person. WE really are. Have the same beliefs and everything. I want to be like HER & she wants to be like ME. It's funny. But I know that only happens when you really find a true friend :) She is something special. Plus, I got to talk to little man last night about his nap with Charlie. :) Becca & I want to teach him how to read and my mom is going to supply more books for him and little princess. ( I don't want to put their names in my blog ) That'd be disrespectful. :) & I'm a good girl :)

Hmm; Drama? Save it for your momma :)

I'm done with the drama. My long talk with Liana at the gym yesterday totally helped :) Write more about this later.

Everybody dance now :)

Gym today; was AMAZING. I feel the BURN; Went with Becca & liana showed up :) I was so HAPPY ! Being with both of them made my day, seriously :) I miss the heck out of LIANA. I got so close with her then she had to leave, but she's back and now we are closer than EVER. We had a LONG talk in the Sauna with some RANDOM guy. Weird, I know right. Then we got finished after about a 2 & 1/2 hour workout. BTW; my stomach is talking again. I wish my mom would hurry up & get here.


But I may meet up with Ally today, no text yet. But who knows. Hopefully, I miss her :( And if she doens't text me I'm coming back to Fort Gordon to hang out with Liana at this Children's thingy they are having. Now this computer is telling me I have ten more minutes. Hmm, oh well I'll make the most of it.

TMA; My new life.

Things I need to focus on:

1.Meditation
2.Clear Minded
3.Having to be self-less, rather then selfish.


1.Meditaion: Hmm; this is going to be hard for me. I think so. But maybe I should say that it is going to be easy for me. If I say that it is going to be easy then, it should be what I say right. Hmm, I don't know. Nor do I have a clue. Truth: I need to get a clue about this meditation.

2.Clear Minded: That's naturally something that is easy for me. Not really that complicated. I just need to release all of my thoughts into a place in the back of my mind and just keep them their. Whether positive or negative; they need to go somewhere. It seems EASY, but not a thing in life is easy.

3. Self-less, rather than selfish: Oh, I know I've got this DOWN pack. I hardly care for myself as it is now. But hey, I do love myself and all that other jazz. But I'd rather help others than maintain the focus on myself. Hmm.

I love this new opportunity;

Late night conversations; can yeild your homework process. But in the long run they help.

Hmm; Last night I had a deep conversation with my boyfriend.


Topic: Me and the people in my life. & how some of them treat me and why I let it happen.


Well, we first started talking about why I was in school. Because I wanted to go to school to get people off my back. That's a bad thing to say. But honestly it's true. & I know it's not the right decision to go to school for. But hey; People are getting off my back about the stuff. & I LOVE school. Never thought I would care that much for college. I thought I would be a stay at home mom with the traditional two kids ( boy & girl), But hey when life throw's you lemons, throw them back :)

Then to the main subject. People who are in my life. Some people in my life I LOVE and always will and I know they have my back just as I have theirs. But other folks, NO! I decided that it's time to release them from my life. I let them treat me a certain way; & I felt dumb for that. But I got over it quickly. Like last night quickly. I told my boyfriend that I needed to take of myself and needed people in my life that would help me step by step; not one's that are only their when they need something ( they've got some screws loose in their heads).

And after this long talk, I realized that I was put here on earth to take care of myself and have positive people in my life.


Thanks Baby for listening to me and offering me some advice. & I LOVE YOU

04/14/2010

Today marks 18 months for my relationship with Dominique. I'm beyond proud of that. I literally have fallen hard for this guy. And I'm glad we stuck through all the happiness & hardships. It hasn't been an easy road, but hey we haven't given up and we won't give up.

Class was very good today. I'm over all having a BLAST at VC.

English 1000; Mrs.Connor's
;Nouns,Verbs,Adverbs,Adjectives,Conjunctions, Interjections, Preposition....Wait I forgot one;Pronoun. Damn. Missed one question on the test. But hey, I think I did great overall :) & that's good for me. Then we went over some other stuff. Hmm. I'll talk about that stuff later on. When I actually understand it :)


EDU ( Learning Framework ) 1010; Mister Bob
;Well, this man right here is very repetitive. But Hey, I need that to get the idea/concept into my head. Thanks Mister Bob! :) We always watched Lou on the screen again. I don't know what it is about his voice that kind of annoys me. But I need to hear that to be able to understand that. Then we did another practice with scotoma's; this one was hard. Hmm. But I understood after awhile. :)


Tonight I have alot of HOMEWORK; So I'll keep the texting to a minimum. Plus, I have TMA tomorrow, SO I have to study. Exam next week...hmmm crunch time, I think?!

i love this place.

i love this place.

Smile,

Today was kind of crazy :)

Woke up around nine-ish . Talked to Dominique on the phone when I got up. Now, we are about to celebrate a year and seven months. Thank God. I love this guy even though we have our ups & downs. But we always manage to fix them and move on. I'm seriously BLESSED to have him in my life. .... SO we chatted for a couple of seconds about what we we're doing today.

....Then I headed to the Georgia Bank & Trust to cash a check that was given to me from Samantha & Matthew. Thanks Ya'll :) And I saw my friend Valerie Ortiz's father. & talked to him for a bit. That was fun.

...Went to the gym & was SO excited to see Rebecca :) & we did some working out. Then we went to walk on the track with Emmanuel. Whoa. Now this guy right here, Hmm. Too much I can say about him even though I said less than 100 words to him. Guy don't go chit chatting with a girl; & FLIRT with her non the less, WHEN YOU ARE MARRIED. Now that is straight up just WRONG. :X You hurt my girl. Now she is stuc: she wants to try, but damn you messed it up homeslice. All I know is I am going to support you Rebecca with whatever you chose to do. ON TO THE NEXT ONE . babe.

....Dominique & I kinda had a rough start to our day. But oh well. Every couple isn't PERFECT. WE had a GREAT lunch at WIld Wing Cafe'. I definitely will go back their. I liked the atmosphere. Fun, Fun, Fun :) Doinique had a 12 piece wing with Medium Sauce and I had Drew's DELICIOUS Fried Chicken Sandwhich. Yummy, mhmm. Then we went to see Tyler Perry's Why did I get married Too? Really good :) Dwayne "THE Rock" Johnson was in it. Surprised me. Damn, one gorgeous man ;) Then we came back to his house and now we're watching March Madness The final four. I'm going for Duke & Butler.

...Today was a really good day. I miss home though. Like a place to call my own. A place that I didn't feel weird in. Lord, please give me a place to stay.

Last night, sucked ass. But Today got better . Went to the gym with Rebecca Anne :) & we worked our butt's off . Now we're outside ! Rebecca & Emmanuel are talking about his "couple of girlfriends" I have no clue what is going on. This is really weird. I know Rebecca is getting upset; I am too . I'm HELLA confused . & I think Rebecca & Emmaunel are too . :X

Becca & Emmanuel chatting it up ;)

Becca & Emmanuel chatting it up ;)

When it comes down to me and you . We use to be close , now I hate responding to your text . I know what was said bout me . & I didn't like it . I hate jealously & I sense it with our friendship now . It's your fault .

My Becca Anne :)

My Becca Anne :)

So this one is dedicated to my boyfriend.

You are the BEST person to walk into my life. You treat me with respect & nothing less than that. You love me for the person I am and the person I have become when I'm with you.

I love when you laugh & your whole body shakes with you. I love when you look at me & just smile. I love how you think your the best and you remind yourself daily.

I thank God for you everyday. Your nothing short of AMAZING :) I LOVE YOU BABE :D

Love's being a size 5 & Healthy :)

Love's being a size 5 & Healthy :)

I've got ALOT to update on, but I'M DOING IT TODAY. So life has been kinda horrible. But talking to my friends has been good. I LOVE when they ask me how I'm doing :)

Dominique & I are doing perfect. Thank God :) I really love this guy, he's amazing ;)

SO... I had orientation last night!! I love my schedule & I get to go to the gym with Liana everyday basically ! So we can get our BEACH BOD'S ready !!!